i guess ...

for the past year or so, i have been thinking of what my next blog entry might say. many a times, mostly on mornings when i find myself alone, i have unconsciously started would-be postings while talking to myself.

last week, on three separate occasions, these musings of mine started with "i guess." on the third occasion, i began to be most frustrated. why only "guess?" am i so uncertain that i don't "know" anything?

i cannot count how many times i have began sentences and sometimes even full blown paragraphs with every intention of getting back on the blogging horse. finally, after a period of random yet consistent encouragement, i am back.

sometimes, i feel like i have forgotten how to write. i can't recall the last time i said something poignant. but, i guess that does not matter now because i know i want to write.